I think if you’re a writer an awful self-consciousness can creep into everything, because the observing stance is so habitual that you can start to wonder if you’re sincere about ANYTHING. Add social media and god only knows. I’ll say this, though. Sometimes the act of observing yourself and questioning isn’t a sign that you don’t feel something enough, but a defence against feeling it too much. For me anyway. X
I think if you’re a writer an awful self-consciousness can creep into everything, because the observing stance is so habitual that you can start to wonder if you’re sincere about ANYTHING. Add social media and god only knows. I’ll say this, though. Sometimes the act of observing yourself and questioning isn’t a sign that you don’t feel something enough, but a defence against feeling it too much. For me anyway. X
that's a far nicer, and more generous way of thinking about it, thank you x